ah skip this shit lah.i'm retaking my o's as a full-time priv. candidate. no nafa for me. dad made the decision.he said the diplomas in nafa are of no worth.nvm, i'm happy enough to be given this chance to retake my o levels.hmm but, the subject combinations are so unappealing.i have to take poa, a subject i've never taken before.and i hv less than a year to study it.is it possible? and i'm considering pure history and biology. hmm, daddy's putting on big bucks on this, just for me. so i really have to play my part, unlike last year.i was serious for practically nothing but art.so now, i fcuking must must must nott play around.less outings(late night ones especially),less work, less play, less art. and maybe much less of everyth i had last year.

anyw, world hasnt been so nice to me.i hv mood swings every now and then, feeling so so vulnerable every moment.this someone, he knows really2 well that i'm good at putting on a veil over my face and even actions.and that veil, speaks so differently from what i feel inside.i love smiling, though i dont mean it.

though i've moved on, i still cant push myself up from lingering in this dark dot.i've never felt like a failure so bad like this.

I'm just so sick of being nice.'nice' with a wide definition.