Norshilah Nasir,
28th December 1990.
My name is Shila, and this site is where my very own life narration portrays, in mute. I am small built, and live in a pillbox world of warm duvets and sudden jabs. I wish to decode it all through typewriter letters and images, maybe more.
Cheers.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
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It's You!
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- for you'll be my puss in hoods tonight.
Saturday, June 28, 2008
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decrepit.
Thursday, June 26, 2008
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i want a pendulous disco ball above my head,
a green star to radiant across the skin of my sleeves,
or maybe even a wind-up toy soldier under my daze,
to fend off the hapless and blemished
my oh my would that be idyllic.
they're my daily dosage of comedies.
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
i want a pendulous disco ball above my head,
a green star to radiant across the skin of my sleeves,
or maybe even a wind-up toy soldier under my daze,
to fend off the hapless and blemished
my oh my would that be idyllic.
**END**
Dear sleep, please build me a sweet pipe dream when i'm deep in oblivion on my bedspread tonight. With Mr. drop dead gorgeous brandishing me off my feet with his aura of warmth. just like the how the voice of Mathew Bellamy mellows me up to the sky. I have been losing myself to pitch black reveries for so long, asleep or not.Having my dreams confined in darkness doesn't enlighten my far from pretty green soul. I want a dream that'll mark a smile on my face when I'm up awake.
There's this boy who has been under the limelight. I've looked upon him from afar,in solid obscurity.Far, yet near enough. And this boy happened. 5 days a week, with a few moments of moving images of him spells s-m-i-t-t-e-n on me . His smile leaves me enchanted. And I'd like my fairytale to stay the way it is. It's perfect when nobody knows. Because when nobody knows, nobody's gonna ruin it, not even that boy himself.
That boy. Whose distance seem close enough. Closer than anything else.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
Dear sleep, please build me a sweet pipe dream when i'm deep in oblivion on my bedspread tonight. With Mr. drop dead gorgeous brandishing me off my feet with his aura of warmth. just like the how the voice of Mathew Bellamy mellows me up to the sky. I have been losing myself to pitch black reveries for so long, asleep or not.Having my dreams confined in darkness doesn't enlighten my far from pretty green soul. I want a dream that'll mark a smile on my face when I'm up awake.
There's this boy who has been under the limelight. I've looked upon him from afar,in solid obscurity.Far, yet near enough. And this boy happened. 5 days a week, with a few moments of moving images of him spells s-m-i-t-t-e-n on me . His smile leaves me enchanted. And I'd like my fairytale to stay the way it is. It's perfect when nobody knows. Because when nobody knows, nobody's gonna ruin it, not even that boy himself.
That boy. Whose distance seem close enough. Closer than anything else.
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today didn't run as planned. I woke up at 1500 hours and i guess the rest of the family woke up late as well.didn't go to ecp but the show did go on. the card's a necessity, and the dinner..elder bro drove to mak's place to get us LOADS of takeaways. all for a sweet dinner at the ocmfort of our home. happy dad's day daddy!
this is my dad, with sis & mom.
the dining table, a few hours back.
this is what I did in my brother's room today. i was so bored seriously!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
today didn't run as planned. I woke up at 1500 hours and i guess the rest of the family woke up late as well.didn't go to ecp but the show did go on. the card's a necessity, and the dinner..elder bro drove to mak's place to get us LOADS of takeaways. all for a sweet dinner at the ocmfort of our home. happy dad's day daddy!
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On Friday the 13th, we had plans to play bowling & pool. But didn't find ourselves doing so cos lots of others had the same plan as well. The laughter & company was enough. I love you my Amigos!
And of course, we had our 'model' moments.
will be celebrating fathers day at ecp later with my fav. relatives. can't wait!
but knowing that school re-opens on monday is really really dispiriting. oooh my =((
i'm itching to get myself a floorball stick.and so, i NEED $$$$, pronto! =(
check out the new blog layout yow!
On Friday the 13th, we had plans to play bowling & pool. But didn't find ourselves doing so cos lots of others had the same plan as well. The laughter & company was enough. I love you my Amigos!
will be celebrating fathers day at ecp later with my fav. relatives. can't wait!
but knowing that school re-opens on monday is really really dispiriting. oooh my =((
i'm itching to get myself a floorball stick.and so, i NEED $$$$, pronto! =(
**END**
4.30 in the morning and i'm still up with eyes bigger than watermelon boobs.
I should have taken heed of how mundane and stagnant my blog has been. [maybe that's how myl ife has been as well. ??]
Perhaps considering some technicoloured layouts will hike it a little up the mild platform.
anyway, the 2 weeks term break was unforeseenly hectic. completely far from my own version of the maldives. oh my god 2 weeks ain't enough and I need more more moreeeeeeeee!
so theres 2 things that I need now, with immediate effect from the word of the mouth please. I need school break, a real one. and not a 2 week one but longer than that. 2 millenium is fine. i'm not fussy.
And I need my ankle to be back to it conventional state. Its been beaten up, worse than eggs till I'm even sidling like an old aunty.
oh ok, i'll end this post here. time to get ready, and meet amni & riniee in the park in 15 minutes time. =B ok bye!~
Friday, June 13, 2008
4.30 in the morning and i'm still up with eyes bigger than watermelon boobs.
I should have taken heed of how mundane and stagnant my blog has been. [maybe that's how myl ife has been as well. ??]
Perhaps considering some technicoloured layouts will hike it a little up the mild platform.
anyway, the 2 weeks term break was unforeseenly hectic. completely far from my own version of the maldives. oh my god 2 weeks ain't enough and I need more more moreeeeeeeee!
so theres 2 things that I need now, with immediate effect from the word of the mouth please. I need school break, a real one. and not a 2 week one but longer than that. 2 millenium is fine. i'm not fussy.
And I need my ankle to be back to it conventional state. Its been beaten up, worse than eggs till I'm even sidling like an old aunty.
oh ok, i'll end this post here. time to get ready, and meet amni & riniee in the park in 15 minutes time. =B ok bye!~
**END**
Because Yana Banana named me. =)
Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions till you've named the 20 peoples.
At the end of this choose 3 peeps to do this (:
1. Nadiah
2. Ian
3. Fathien
4. Dee
5. Nori
6. Yana
7. Amni
8. Riniee
9. Hakim
10. Biman
11. Farhan
12. Effa
13. Dhil
14. Pai
15. Irya
16. Iz
17. Aisah
18. Julie
19. Izza
20. Michelle
How did you meet #14?
- He's #13's elder brother.
What would you do if you hadn't met #1?
- I'd totally go yadada w/o a sister. sister = gossip mate!
What if #9 and #20 dated?
- hmm, it'll be damn interesting!
What if #6th and #17th dated?
- if they're both bi/lesb then it's totally fine.
Describe #3
- i'd have to say life would be an ordeal w/o her.Known her since we're both 5 years young but at times, I just feel that she's a jigsaw puzzle, still!
Is number #8 attractive?
- Like duh!. all the Kumars in the world are inlove with her. Riniee u go girl!
Decribe #7
- Hell yeah her nostrils are the best place to insert an egg beater when she laughs.She's just like me, tends to get all stressed up over nothing. but a tad worse than me. =P
Do you know any of #12's family members?
- Kind of met her sister at anugerah planet music somewhere last year.
What will you do if #18th confesses that he loves you?
- #18 is a she. duh?
What language does #15 speak?
- eng, malay, GIBBERISH.haha!
Who is #9 going out with?
- thats quite a mystery affter he dumped his crutches. Ryan Sheckler maybe? NOT.
How old is #16?
- 19 this year. when's ur bday again? sorry, my hp's dead. =(
When was the last time you spoke to #13?
- a few days ago? we both shared our anguish of not getting to catch Uffie. sigh.
Who is the favourite singer/band of #2?
- Let's see. My brother's a fan of... Uverworld, Slipknot, Comeback kid.. . . . . . . . .
Have you ever dated #4?
- yes2! We love each other dont we Dee????
Would you ever date #1?
- I have been doing so since the day I was borned. she's always a deck bellow me when i sleep.
Is #19 single?
- idk. i think she's attached. or maybe not. no idea.
What's #10 last name?
- I can give his full name! Bimandhra Riyadi. did i gt that right??
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
- nothing beyond friendship. uh-huh.
What's the school of #3?
- Nanyang Polytechnic's School of Design.
Where does #6 live?
- Somewhere in Bedok I think.
What's your favourite thing about #7?
- Always the ignition of Riniee, me & Yana's laughter. U can't believe how lame she can get - yet she never fails to make us laugh.
Have you ever seen #2 naked?
- half naked. he's always topless at home. duh, guys.
The people to do this.- Fathien, Irya & Iz.
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Name 20 people you can think of right now.
Don't read the questions till you've named the 20 peoples.
At the end of this choose 3 peeps to do this (:
1. Nadiah
2. Ian
3. Fathien
4. Dee
5. Nori
6. Yana
7. Amni
8. Riniee
9. Hakim
10. Biman
11. Farhan
12. Effa
13. Dhil
14. Pai
15. Irya
16. Iz
17. Aisah
18. Julie
19. Izza
20. Michelle
How did you meet #14?
- He's #13's elder brother.
What would you do if you hadn't met #1?
- I'd totally go yadada w/o a sister. sister = gossip mate!
What if #9 and #20 dated?
- hmm, it'll be damn interesting!
What if #6th and #17th dated?
- if they're both bi/lesb then it's totally fine.
Describe #3
- i'd have to say life would be an ordeal w/o her.Known her since we're both 5 years young but at times, I just feel that she's a jigsaw puzzle, still!
Is number #8 attractive?
- Like duh!. all the Kumars in the world are inlove with her. Riniee u go girl!
Decribe #7
- Hell yeah her nostrils are the best place to insert an egg beater when she laughs.She's just like me, tends to get all stressed up over nothing. but a tad worse than me. =P
Do you know any of #12's family members?
- Kind of met her sister at anugerah planet music somewhere last year.
What will you do if #18th confesses that he loves you?
- #18 is a she. duh?
What language does #15 speak?
- eng, malay, GIBBERISH.haha!
Who is #9 going out with?
- thats quite a mystery affter he dumped his crutches. Ryan Sheckler maybe? NOT.
How old is #16?
- 19 this year. when's ur bday again? sorry, my hp's dead. =(
When was the last time you spoke to #13?
- a few days ago? we both shared our anguish of not getting to catch Uffie. sigh.
Who is the favourite singer/band of #2?
- Let's see. My brother's a fan of... Uverworld, Slipknot, Comeback kid.. . . . . . . . .
Have you ever dated #4?
- yes2! We love each other dont we Dee????
Would you ever date #1?
- I have been doing so since the day I was borned. she's always a deck bellow me when i sleep.
Is #19 single?
- idk. i think she's attached. or maybe not. no idea.
What's #10 last name?
- I can give his full name! Bimandhra Riyadi. did i gt that right??
Would you ever be in a relationship with #11?
- nothing beyond friendship. uh-huh.
What's the school of #3?
- Nanyang Polytechnic's School of Design.
Where does #6 live?
- Somewhere in Bedok I think.
What's your favourite thing about #7?
- Always the ignition of Riniee, me & Yana's laughter. U can't believe how lame she can get - yet she never fails to make us laugh.
Have you ever seen #2 naked?
- half naked. he's always topless at home. duh, guys.
The people to do this.- Fathien, Irya & Iz.
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If you guys love prawns, betcha'll love my fingers.I spent this evening helping mom out with the preparation for this Saturday's event. My 8 year old younger bro will be circumcised.Finally!
Pretty dismayed that I missed all the fun for yesterday's class chalet. I made haste in heading for downtown east after training, which wasn't hasty enough because I only managed to reach there only after 11pm. The rest of the classmates have already went home. =(
my dismay didnt really cease there. I was greeted with those who were almost drunk. few were sober. but that didnt get me for sure. anyway! at that point of time, the only far from trivial thing in my mind was FOOD.soon after little miss ravenous has gratified herself enough, Natashah & I cycled off to pasir ris park.round and round we went. came back to the room with more marshmellows and dark chocolates yum yum! oh yes, before that, at 12 sharp, we sang a Happy happy bday song for Geannie in the bottle. Too bad she had to leave after that. =(
we played truth or dare by 2am or so. a very candid one it was. whatever that was veilled has been uncovered. the poker card & spin-the-bottle dares got even more bonkers with time. it was hilarious that the laughing gas got me drunk as well. and while the rest were playing, I went K.O and flew off to dreamland! I even had time to dream about Ed Westwick -.-''. Landed back on earth by 6 in the morning, self-mellowed in the sheets and duvets while waiting for Natashah to get ready. By 7am, Nat & I had our b-fast at macs. She had her big breakfast while I had my 2 bux meal.I'm seriously a cheapo man. I wasn't really trigger happy last night so there's no pic. But i'll just post a picture of my classmates here.
yes that's my E36R.
I have been mom's kitchen aid soon after I reached home this afternoon. Caught up with sleep sometime in between.
Happy Sweet 17,Geannie [pig]! =B
If you guys love prawns, betcha'll love my fingers.I spent this evening helping mom out with the preparation for this Saturday's event. My 8 year old younger bro will be circumcised.Finally!
Pretty dismayed that I missed all the fun for yesterday's class chalet. I made haste in heading for downtown east after training, which wasn't hasty enough because I only managed to reach there only after 11pm. The rest of the classmates have already went home. =(
my dismay didnt really cease there. I was greeted with those who were almost drunk. few were sober. but that didnt get me for sure. anyway! at that point of time, the only far from trivial thing in my mind was FOOD.soon after little miss ravenous has gratified herself enough, Natashah & I cycled off to pasir ris park.round and round we went. came back to the room with more marshmellows and dark chocolates yum yum! oh yes, before that, at 12 sharp, we sang a Happy happy bday song for Geannie in the bottle. Too bad she had to leave after that. =(
we played truth or dare by 2am or so. a very candid one it was. whatever that was veilled has been uncovered. the poker card & spin-the-bottle dares got even more bonkers with time. it was hilarious that the laughing gas got me drunk as well. and while the rest were playing, I went K.O and flew off to dreamland! I even had time to dream about Ed Westwick -.-''. Landed back on earth by 6 in the morning, self-mellowed in the sheets and duvets while waiting for Natashah to get ready. By 7am, Nat & I had our b-fast at macs. She had her big breakfast while I had my 2 bux meal.I'm seriously a cheapo man. I wasn't really trigger happy last night so there's no pic. But i'll just post a picture of my classmates here.
I have been mom's kitchen aid soon after I reached home this afternoon. Caught up with sleep sometime in between.
Happy Sweet 17,Geannie [pig]! =B
**END**
i really need help. i serious shit-ly NEED to go for anger management. These past few days, I keep on feeling that this world's out there to get me. And yeah, my period's way past due. its not pms. it's just me. Controling my emotions seemed to be quite a chore to me. First, I broke my hp's screen. Why? Because i was so retardedly beyond myself. The hp was alrd dying as it is and I have been depending on it for as long as I can remember. And for all the things on earth, why the death of my hp? All my contacts are in it[lil miss brainee didnt save in the sim card], I re-read my inbox & look at the pics in it when i'm bored, its been a very loyal alarm clock that wakes me up every morning to sch despite the number of snoozes i press. And so, my mom's hp's alarm aint nothing compared to it. That very morning, i happened to have UT & i was suppose to meet amni at 810 but i woke up at 815. all thanks to mom's hp's 'monstrous' alarm. -.-'' its so pelan nak mampos till its shrimpish enough to be eaten as cincalok.ok lame. so i threw MY hp down the floor from my bed, the 2nd deck of the double deckered bed. nice move aint it! I miss my hp so much, so so much more than how much i miss my fried mars bars.and now im still in the road to recovery. but bottomline is: SLIDE PHONES & MOOD SWING-ED PPL DOESN'T MAKE A GOOD PAIR. and another one... I damaged the tip of my fav. marker. cos i was knocking the tip so hard against the table. i can't remember what got me so fiery.
whats worse is that i kind of took it out on my dad. cos i need money and he doesnt seem to respond to that. money money money. that's the thing that ignited almost every tug o war i have had with dad. because i know he has the money but he doesnt seem to realize that i am not working an I constantly need money. but i dont wish to be a bitch and whine about how much i feel that i need daddy's attention, or at least, for him to even care. I've been bottling this for quite some time. I'm single now and things are different. Its either my journal,blog,bestfriend or myself. but in this case, it's the latter that i've chosen. i am aware that Fathien's leading the amazon-on-fire life with endless projects and deadlines. haha story of a design student's life eh Fathien!.so thats why i only turned to myself. besides, even if i were to share, I've got no reason to. Because I have mood swings and I get angry over nothing. hey wait! it worked! i told myself that maybe blogging about this might make me feel better. and feeling is believing. =)
i know i'm weird so you people should run astray like dogs from me.
unless you've the tix to ride this emotional carousel ride of mine, of course.
and yeah, thank you maira for the free teh peng just now! perfect post-training remedy.
i've yet to pack my bag for the class chalet tmrw. and training before that of course. i hate these things omg.pardon for the bad english in this post. thats how angry people are. even so, I think i am too weird for my own kind. goodnight i'm jaded bye!
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
i really need help. i serious shit-ly NEED to go for anger management. These past few days, I keep on feeling that this world's out there to get me. And yeah, my period's way past due. its not pms. it's just me. Controling my emotions seemed to be quite a chore to me. First, I broke my hp's screen. Why? Because i was so retardedly beyond myself. The hp was alrd dying as it is and I have been depending on it for as long as I can remember. And for all the things on earth, why the death of my hp? All my contacts are in it[lil miss brainee didnt save in the sim card], I re-read my inbox & look at the pics in it when i'm bored, its been a very loyal alarm clock that wakes me up every morning to sch despite the number of snoozes i press. And so, my mom's hp's alarm aint nothing compared to it. That very morning, i happened to have UT & i was suppose to meet amni at 810 but i woke up at 815. all thanks to mom's hp's 'monstrous' alarm. -.-'' its so pelan nak mampos till its shrimpish enough to be eaten as cincalok.ok lame. so i threw MY hp down the floor from my bed, the 2nd deck of the double deckered bed. nice move aint it! I miss my hp so much, so so much more than how much i miss my fried mars bars.and now im still in the road to recovery. but bottomline is: SLIDE PHONES & MOOD SWING-ED PPL DOESN'T MAKE A GOOD PAIR. and another one... I damaged the tip of my fav. marker. cos i was knocking the tip so hard against the table. i can't remember what got me so fiery.
whats worse is that i kind of took it out on my dad. cos i need money and he doesnt seem to respond to that. money money money. that's the thing that ignited almost every tug o war i have had with dad. because i know he has the money but he doesnt seem to realize that i am not working an I constantly need money. but i dont wish to be a bitch and whine about how much i feel that i need daddy's attention, or at least, for him to even care. I've been bottling this for quite some time. I'm single now and things are different. Its either my journal,blog,bestfriend or myself. but in this case, it's the latter that i've chosen. i am aware that Fathien's leading the amazon-on-fire life with endless projects and deadlines. haha story of a design student's life eh Fathien!.so thats why i only turned to myself. besides, even if i were to share, I've got no reason to. Because I have mood swings and I get angry over nothing. hey wait! it worked! i told myself that maybe blogging about this might make me feel better. and feeling is believing. =)
i know i'm weird so you people should run astray like dogs from me.
unless you've the tix to ride this emotional carousel ride of mine, of course.
and yeah, thank you maira for the free teh peng just now! perfect post-training remedy.
i've yet to pack my bag for the class chalet tmrw. and training before that of course. i hate these things omg.pardon for the bad english in this post. thats how angry people are. even so, I think i am too weird for my own kind. goodnight i'm jaded bye!
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andachangeover.
But the changeover will be re-modified sooner or later when daddy's planted freshly baked furnitures in this cubic space.With fresh furniture[s] comes new wall art & colour. ///////////
All new friends with waggish and quirky humour made at nyp today. Thank You bestfriend.Te Quiero!
Dee
Fathien
Iz
Irya
Tutorgirl
Kal
Kin
Fifa
Anxx
Haikal
Emil
Lyssa
Pavalam
Malik
Tasha
Icka
Maira
Zaha
Umaira
Yana
Farhan
Nurul
Firdaus
Amni
An
Kyria
Enz
Johnboy
Syam
Erika
Fiza
But the changeover will be re-modified sooner or later when daddy's planted freshly baked furnitures in this cubic space.With fresh furniture[s] comes new wall art & colour. ///////////
**END**
all new freshly bbq-ed pringles. must try!
Bumped into an old friend at pasir ris int.I came out of nowhere[from behind actually] and put my right arm around her shoulders. and like duh she was shocked to see me. a very boom boom bang conversation we had. she's now in shatec. kind of surprising for me cos she was all in for art last time. and oh, Hakim who was walking beside me found it hilarious when she asked me "wah, how come you're so fat now?". she asked that twice, and Hakim laughed twice as well.we're all aware of how a loud and IRRITATING laughter Hakim has aren't we? Oh well, people change and grow[for my case, horizontally] with time ok?
and oh! the very long awaited 2 weeks school break's here.anyone wanna ask me out? feel free to contact me! i'm free like a bird! [I WISH].
Monday, June 02, 2008
Bumped into an old friend at pasir ris int.I came out of nowhere[from behind actually] and put my right arm around her shoulders. and like duh she was shocked to see me. a very boom boom bang conversation we had. she's now in shatec. kind of surprising for me cos she was all in for art last time. and oh, Hakim who was walking beside me found it hilarious when she asked me "wah, how come you're so fat now?". she asked that twice, and Hakim laughed twice as well.we're all aware of how a loud and IRRITATING laughter Hakim has aren't we? Oh well, people change and grow[for my case, horizontally] with time ok?
and oh! the very long awaited 2 weeks school break's here.anyone wanna ask me out? feel free to contact me! i'm free like a bird! [I WISH].
**END**
Dee
Fathien
Iz
Irya
Tutorgirl
Kal
Kin
Fifa
Anxx
Haikal
Emil
Lyssa
Pavalam
Malik
Tasha
Icka
Maira
Zaha
Umaira
Yana
Farhan
Nurul
Firdaus
Amni
An
Kyria
Enz
Johnboy
Syam
Erika
Fiza
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